I hate people

been in tears for the past 3 days like I am so ugh done with everything. You know when you think life would so much easier if I wasn't here. That is how I feel like I want to die but I am scared to be the one to end it. Like always people hate me because I am too honest, and they call it rude. well I think it is rude to be fake to people and make them think that you know them like seriously. Why would I want to waste my time being friends with you, if you are fake. So I am seriously just going to stop talking to people and yeah they can call me a B#tch but its whatever, at least I want have to worry about getting my feelings. Like people think that I am so hard, and with the life I had I had to be or else I would be dead. But I do have feels and it does hurt what people say especially when they are pretending to one of my friends.