Family

The bonds that tie us together are the same bonds by which we hang,
I speak of you with love, though the words when repeated, cut like a knife,
The sudden feeling of betrayal, shock and dismay,
I speak of my mother and her lack of discipline but I enable the behaviors which cause me anxiety because not having that love, well that would be the death of me.
So too it is with you, that I would open my mouth and speak, never did I think my words would be twisted, nor did I think I said anything that would cause so much pain.
Power in words, yes this I am learning again.
Speak with purpose and do not speak unless present,
Those that are scared will deflect and lie, so be honest and the truth will reveal itself.
I would die for my family but die I never shall,
Grieved to never touch, kiss or see that beautiful smile.
At least not in this life time and not for awhile.
Distance makes the heart grow founder, as I contemplate disappearing into the yonder.
All I want is togetherness, but the voiceless scream for separation.
So peace I leave you with, in solace I know, I did everything to help but harm is all that showed.