The Black Rose in the White Grass

So this past weekend I found out that I have an infected mastoid, the mastoid is a bone in the brain, my is swollen and is putting pressure on my brain. Yeah its funny after all the crap that I have been through I still have to deal with this crap.

But hey I can still smile, my legs are awesome, my stomach is awesome, my butt omg is awesome, I can run up and down the court and still ball which is awesome, and Cameron much like the rest of me is awesome.

With all this awesome you would think they would make is against the law. lol

I miss all of the wonderful women at group, and I hope that they are all doing well

hugs to them all I really don't know where I would be without them. I love Bernie and Rich so much and I have been praying for them and I know that their family is doing so wonderfully. I think about the past couple of months and all the blessings that I have received and I can't help but think thank god.

One day a black rose came up out of white grass, the gardener was afraid that the grass would be harmed tried to get rid of the black rose. But the white grass knew better. It knew that out of eternal darkness comes light and with out the black rose they would die.

I am a black rose much like the other girls in group and group to me represents the white grass, if one girl were to leave or stop coming it hurts because we/I need and love her. I love you all so very much, being away from you all hurts so much, but I know that everything happens for a reason, so I will smile some more and keep you always in my heart.