Can We Talk?

Will you actually listen?
There is so much that I want to say,
need to say but the words wont flow because they are falling on drunken ears.
I love you more than I should and more than I care too but I do,
Is it possible to be married to someone you have never been married to?
Someone you have never known but you know so much about already,
Talk about what people deserve,
Do I deserve how you treat me, do I deserve the indifference?
You fear being abandoned, yet you continue to abandon me,
You claim all your friends screwed you over and you continue to screw over me,
Do I deserve your type of friendship?
Can we talk?
Will you actually hear me?
Or are you in a drunken stupper,
Drowing whatever is left of your life,
Affirming that it will change but falling short of the requirements to change it,
You don't need me but I need you,
Not to support me but to listen,
I keep beating myself up thinking it is I who is not worthy,
but its you who is not worthy of the amazing life we could have and create together,
It is you not I who is blinded by the glitz of the world, too blind to see what can be shared,
The body of a Goddess and the Mind and Spirit of a Universe without end,
We could conquer this mortal world but you let it drown you,
I have destroyed the brand that the world wishes me to have,
I have coined and monetized my existence,
No one can stand or breath the air I do,
I am beyond this world and others like it,
I am the creator of all things great,
I am Jasmine C. Petit, the end, the beginning,
Forever and Forever I will reign in this life and in paradise,
A mother to the motherless,
A comfort to the friendless,
I am a Women of GOD, if I ask it, it shall be so,
I command you let my heart go,
So I can be the Women God chose.