Nothing But the Truth

I swear to tell nothing but the truth so help me God

  5 years ago we made the biggest mistake, we took our friendship to a sexual level, thereby changing the dynamics of what was once a great friendship.
You said you always admired my drive in high school, thru friendship I tried to communicate what my driving force was but was unsuccessful. I thought that if I couldn't push you as your friend I could push you as your women and there lay my biggest flaw/mistake; pursuing you and taking our relationship further,
       I am sorry for forcing us to get together and I am sorry for keeping us together as long as we did. I am also sorry for ending us in that manner and should have ending things more politely. I do not envy her, or wish to have her place. when I forced us together I completely lost sight of all that made me strong and driven. I tried to push you and failed because I lost sight of the truth. The strength that I had and you needed could only come from inside you. We were never meant to be together and I know that but for goodness sake its been a year why are you still trying to bad mouth me. 
"You will destroy my name, no one will remember me" are we in high school, what do I a lioness care for the opinions of sheep. I didn't think I would have to explain that to a "real nigga" such as yourself. 
      If my words to Synn offended you, I'm sorry but you should know I love him like a brother, everyone who worked at inferno was like family to me, at least the guys were like my brothers. I love all of them and you but like a brother. But you do some shit that I just can't fuck with no more, I had to leave my childish ways behind, we weren't in school anymore. We didn't have to pretend to still romantically care about one another. You've always seen me as your little sister and I'm sorry I pushed so hard to change that. 
      Bro, its time to grow up, all that bad mouthing calling me an escort, homie hopper and bitch, like come. 95% of the people you introduced me to, got to know me well enough its laughable that you would even say it. When did I ever go to the club before you, never hence why I'm never in the clubs since I stopped working there and everyone left. 
     There is no need to keep talking crap about me and regardless of the fact that people say I'm talking shit I'm not. I might bring up a memory and if that's still a sensitive area for you, well its been a year your happily moved on, I would think you don't care by now. They run and tell you foul shit but did they tell you what I wrote about you on fathers day? probably not, why? because the people that care don't matter and the people that matter don't care. 
     The past is the past, its time to let things rest, unless your recalling a memory don't speak of me and I will continue to do as I've always done. Write about my life.